Skipped Day

Well, yesterday was a great freaking day. I'm slowly getting into the hang of being single again. I didn't have ANYTHING to do. I started out my day with a multiple hour long bath, I read a book that my brother has gotten me addicted to, I organized some things on the computer, I cleaned, I went for a drive, I talked with a friend for an hour, I went to a friends house and hung out and played cards (my favorite game! Netrunner), and talked shop with my brothers.

Today has been kinda the same. I'm kinda blown away how stress-free life can be on my own. Don't get me wrong, I've got like 30 pans I'm prepping for throwing in the fire once this divorce finalizes, but I don't think those things are going to stress me. They are things I will enjoy working on, I'm planning them out much better than anything I've planned out before, and I think I should be rich and/or smarter within a good 3 years.

I'm very tired right now, but I am ending my day today with a bath. I made alot happen today as well, despite spending alot of time reading for fun too. So it was another quite nice day.

These are things I never allowed myself fully when I was married... I was a moron too. But, you do what you know... and that was all I could wrap my head around. Figuring out balance in life is my next BIG goal.

BALANCE.

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I feel so lost when it comes to interacting with new people in a healthy manner. I have this instinct to either lock completely up or open completely up. I don't do well with being balanced. But it's something I am aware of, and something I am working on. I don't know if I will ever WANT to get married again. But if I do? I can't ever do what I did this last decade. It almost killed me.

sigh

I'm hitting the bath now.
Peace, Love and Harmony