T-Minus 3 Minutes and Counting

Well, I'm 3 minutes from heading over to my lawyers office to file papers for the divorce from my wife.

Mixed emotions for sure...
Happy to remove the burden this marriage ended up feeling like...
Sad to lose this woman as my wife...
Peace at knowing we both are able to feel that this is a good thing...

I'm in a weird place. I suppose I'll feel better once I hit the end of this meeting. I'm tired of crying, but I fear I am not finished with that particular emotion. I'm fighting a nasty cold, and taking care of myself, and that's hard. It's all such a whirlwind of feelings and emotions. I figure I'll take these emotions and deal with them as I move forward, and figure out the rest later on.

I wish you didn't want to divorce me, my wife.
I wish you had tried harder to make this work.
Why you didn't will always plague me.
But I still love you, whether I truly want to or not.

Here's to Peace, Love and Harmony...
(raises glass of water with Emergen-C in it)

bye