Well that's a big pile of suck!

I showed up at the Lawyers office at 11:30am. It was supposed to be the date and time I filed. He was stuck in court and would have to reschedule.

Wouldn't you know it...?
I'm there... focused, ready, frustrated, wanting to cry...
And I can't even do that which I planned to do.
FILE FOR DIVORCE!!!!

Argh! Frustration seeps through my very soul. (that same soul which I do not believe exists!)

It's amazing how many concepts and ideas we keep cluttering up our brain with even after we've let them go, debunked them, proven them wrong, etc.? Amazing.

Well, I'm more focused than anything on getting this damn divorce started, processed and finalized NOW! I'm ready to get back to doing things I enjoy, to feeling happiness at simple accomplishments, to watching something I create get put to its purpose!

I'm dying to create!
I have so many projects I am ready to program? It's sick!
But first, I have to make myself single.

sheesh!
It would be nice to believe in a god. But I would just end up blaming him/her/it for everything and then where would I be? It's time that I take responsibility for me, my actions, my decisions, my life. So here I am...

Trying...
Failing...
Succeeding...
Doing...