Strong in Virtue

Growing up, I remember my mother told me that my name meant strong in virtue. So therefore, the virtues of life? I was strong in them...

Well, I have to say...
I struggle to BE strong in them... but I tend to fail more than succeed so far.

Case in point.

My Apartment.
I move in on the 13th of next month.
The 13th of next month is 4 million years away... and I am going slowly insane.
I just got home from the gym, I want to eat and go to bed. Simply because the 13th will get here more quickly that way... yeah, I never said I thought it through...

So instead. I will be preparing dinner, eating dinner, and probably going through my mail. Since my divorce, 100% of it is bills, but it still needs to be loved. SO...

ARGH!

I just wish all my friends hadn't let me get rid of them. I wish someone had said, "Dude, just because you're married doesn't mean you can't hang out with us." I wish someone else had been responsible for the friendships that I let dissolve. Because right now? I could really use someone to go see a dollar movie with... doesn't matter the movie... just a movie.

But it's ok. Cause I'm learning independence. How to be alone and it's gonna be ok. In fact, I think I will finish up book one that I am in the middle of and start book two. Goodness I hurt. I didn't get to work out like normal on Monday, so today was extra hard. I bumped my speed up to 3.8 mph for 65 minutes. I walked over 4 miles. It was exhilarating. I am pooped. My chest HURTS... chuckle. But I could tell that my few cheats have bit me back. I was down to 256lbs the other day, I am back at 258. So... no more cheats. I hate these holiday weekends. Cause I tend to let things go during them... luckily? No more for awhile...

Well, dinner is calling... I am answering... peace.