10 Days To Go

So here I am.

I've got 10 days to go till I get into my new place. I have my BED taken care of.
California King Platform Bed, Sheets, Pillow Cases, and Comforter.
Bought, and in the mail... (at least they'd BETTER be!)

I just went to go do taxes.
My first taxes in almost a decade as a single man.
I just paid $85 to H&R Block because I want someone ELSE to be responsible for my taxes if they are fucked up, especially since I just got divorced in December and who KNOWS what the laws are about filing taxes? (Well, H&R Block BETTER know! That's why I paid them.)

So I spent $85, halfway expecting to see around $600 in my return. Nope. I owe $300.
Yay!

FUCK!
So... My debt ratio just keeps climbing.
But that's ok... I've got all the time in the world to get this shit figured out.
I'll be on my own in 10 mother-fucking days...
I wish I could close my eyes and just wake up then... ugh!

To add to the wonderful mix of joy?
I apparently have a wonderful reaction to SOMETHING?!
My skin on my arms is breaking out like I got poison ivy?!
I'm the guy that is allergic to like, 3 things... so what the hell?!

But I don't have time to go see my dad (www.keefeclinic.com) and get tested to find out what I am reacting to! I had committed myself to my ex-wife tonight, to help her finish the move out of the last apartment we had lived in together. Then tomorrow I will be going to the gym. So it's gonna be Thursday till I can get in... ugh! But that's cool... I have an idea. I'm gonna go do a bath right now and put olive oil in it... that should soothe some of the burning. Ugh! I think I'm allergic to being alone... ha ha ha sigh...

I'm trying to be strong... I wanna be strong... I have to be strong, cause I ain't got any other options. I will NOT jump into another relationship ever again. I am more than happy to find that special someone and CONSIDER marriage? But it will be an balanced decision. Thoughtful and Emotional. No more emotional rollercoasters for me... that's what got my heart broken here recently...

For now? I gotta find some way to make some money... ugh! Hate being here. Wish I could just have the cash I need and move forward. But... such is not my life.

Ah well...
A bath is calling me... I have a good book, a bottle of olive oil, and my iPhone for tunage...
Have a wonderful night... all of you...