Last day of the month, First day of the weekend

Well, we've arrived.

August is here... that means in roughly 2 weeks it'll be my birthday.

What to do, what to do... How about a recap, because I'm even lost on where I've gone and what I've done.

Let's see. Well, the obviously most important / exciting things I've done with my life recently is I started dating my ex. We had tried this out right after the divorce, but we both had too many bad habits from our failed first marriage and we weren't in the same place mentally and emotionally to really appreciate each other. It was more of a "we've done this so long and it feels too weird to not do it" rather than a genuine "I love you" kind of situation.

So this second time around we were both sure that this was what we wanted. We talked about the breakdowns, we've worked through several old issues and beaten them, created workarounds (if you will) that have allowed us to move forward and make progress in ways we never could have before.

After a month or so of trying out this new relationship with these two new people, we decided to tie the knot. I asked her, she said yes, I made our engagement rings and commissioned a custom piece for her wedding ring, and on the 4th of July we got married. I also got ordained as a minister and licensed to marry people in the state of Oklahoma.

Yeah, that's kinda how we roll. I know I'm an Atheist, but I'm also a Reverend. Don't you tell ME how to enjoy MY religion... I'm still in the middle of what religion means to me. I mean I read Science Fiction and Fantasy for my escape, and I consider Religion to be in the exact same boat. So how serious do I want to play "The Flying Spaghetti Monster?" I know I've been contemplating writing a "Human Bible" for Atheists who feel like they are spiritual but have NO desire to join the delusional path and believe in a Giant Fairy in the clouds who arbitrarily grants wishes. We'll see...

I also went out and purchased www.churchofthepaddedwall.org

That's right... my virtual church is coming. It'll be awesome when it gets here too... I mean c'mon, we're doing the "Lords" work... (whomever that is?!)

So it's the Reverend and his wife now. And life is moving forward. We don't stop. We went through Motorcycle Safety Classes together before the marriage, and we bought a 1973 Honda CB750 K3 and it's a fucking beaut! Can't ride it enough, still waiting till I can get the Harley Davidson Nightster that I'm dreaming of. Gotta get my finances in order, and I don't really have the time yet especially with school coming up. So we shall see...

School! I applied for and was accepted into a Beta program at TCC where I get one year of school PAID FOR, a free Macintosh Laptop and an iPod Touch for development purposes, and I get trained for iPhone/iPod and Googles Android development. I start in a couple weeks, right around the ole Birthday... so THAT should be fun.

Been making some appearances changes as well. I always used to joke that I got a new wife every month because Skye would change her hair color. And I mean CHANGE her hair color. Not like Brown to light Red... I mean Blue to Green. NEON BLUE to NEON GREEN. It's awesome and inspiring to be around that. But the City Government Employee inside me always shied away from being able to do things like that until it dawned on me.

This is it. If I don't do what makes me happy now, when will I?

So I'm sporting the beginning of a mohawk.

I've never wanted the bald head with a mohawk look, I like the stubble or short hair one, and that's what I've got. It's only an inch or so long, I can hide it easily during work hours, but it's begun! I hope to see it grow long and proud...

In the meantime, I just finished roughly 20 hours of 3D Modeling Training and got access to Discreets 3ds Max 3D Modeling program. I'm hoping to see if it's a medium I wanna stick with or a flash in the pan curiousity. It'll be fun either way. I'm sure I'll have pictures up soon.

On top of this Skye and I are putting our lives together as firmly as we can. Riding our bike, still spinning fire, building and creating worlds, and loving each other just as fiercely (if not a little more smartly) as ever.

My days are full, my nights are beautiful, and my life is exactly where I want it. My weekend has way too much planned for it, but that just means I'll have something fun to do at every point between then and now. I hope you find what you're looking for and thanks for the read... PEACE!

Daily Incantations

I've been kinda outta pocket these last couple weeks.

I've started dating my ex, which is weird enough... and more than fun. I've started doing art for art's sake, which is nirvanna... I've started studying online tutorials at Lynda.com in order to get back up to speed with Actionscript programming in Adobe's Flex, which is hard work right now...

I've taken on a whole lot... on top of all of this, I walk three days a week, 1 hour a day, 4.5 miles per hour. My eating habits have fluctuated lately, what with eating more meals with Skye, and the guys at work are bringing sweets in to work... I've been able to manage my weight lately without any help. However, I think it's almost time to head back and pick up at Livestrong.com for some help.

I was doing ok, but then I started being presented with options... something I could manage when I was the only one in my life... However, no man is an island, and eventually I have started to hang out and be one with the herd. This means more interaction with foods that I wouldn't normally allow myself to be tempted with.

It all boils down to...
I was 287lbs in December.
I have brought myself down to 242lbs as of two weeks ago.
As of yesterday?
I was at 249lbs.

SO... I am stepping back on track with taking my eating habits seriously. I am locking down the relaxed stance towards junk food. And I think that will take care of the problem... not that it's really a problem... it's just annoying, cause I was doing so well.

Truth be told? I've bounced a couple times before, but never this close to my goals. So it's pissing me off... I figure that managing my weight is something I will always need to do. I'm just trying to lock down my eating habits now to something I can live with forever. Because yo-yo-ing with your weight is bad for you.

Anyway...

Dating. I've been out there, mingling a little with the crowd, and it's been good and bad. I've met some women I wouldn't mind adding to my friends list, but nothing really seriously worth paying attention to. It could be because of my approach? It could be because of incompatibility. *shrugs*

I've been spending more time lately with my ex. We danced back and forth a few times the last month or so and finally had a sit down.

See, the largest reason we divorced was because I wouldn't get a life.

I would come home, and begin my day of caring for her. I could always find a reason to not go hang with friends, to not invite friends over, etc. There was always something to clean up or fetch, and thus... that's what I did. Which meant I was unhappy. I never progressed in the things I enjoy, I never tried new things, because there was always a reason to be busy.

My ex tried to tell me this, and I always felt that it was the husbands job to do what was needed. I never focused on the thought that if I didn't have a life, I wasn't bringing anything interesting to the relationship. I was just the hired help.

Well, I've gotten a life... a couple actually. Those things I always ALMSOT did when I was married? I am dancing in now. I've lost almost 50lbs. I exercise 3 days a week, and that number will be rising soon (once I hit my target weight). I'm 'doing' things now...

Which clears up most of the problems we had in our marriage.
So where do we go from here?
Well, therein lies the problem. I'm clueless when it comes to relationships. Oh, I know all the right things to SAY to someone where I am... but I can't seem to believe those things. I'm a RUSH INTO EVERYTHING kinda guy. Which is why we ended up where we did just last year.

So pulling on the reigns in ANY relationship is foreign for me. But I'm learning it...

It's a weird little dance to say the least...
It's really nice to have her around me tho...
Especially since I'm into so many cool things now...

I like getting to share with her things that I only used to talk about.
I'm doing them now tho...

SO...
Life hasn't slowed down, it's still exciting (sigh), and still moving forward full steam ahead.

I've started and completed some paintings...
I've started some 3D artwork (sculpting), but they got bogged down in personal stuff and still need to be revisited. I will be doing some sketching tonight, after the bar. I'm not a drinker so I won't be sloshed, but I do plan on having my first-ever 'Green Beer' tonight. So that'll be nice. I'm all dressed up as a Leprechaun at work today, meeting Skye tonight after work to head to the bar and freak out our friends who don't know that we are dating yet... we might just have to hold hands or kiss or something to freak them completely out... chuckle.

Either way... tonight is a busy night. Tomorrow I walk and hopefully study online some more... Maybe get back to my sculpting project... Whatever it is? I am sure that I will do it because I want to... That's why I am doing anything nowadays...

Cause I want to...

Procrastination : 100%

So I've been SLOWLY working towards my goal of getting into painting.

Annoyingly enough, I have recently made the (almost) final step of buying paints and brushes.

I say annoyingly because I want to do this, but I'm so afraid that I'll suck.
I'm a WEE bit of a perfectionist... which you're not supposed to be with your art.
(or so I've been told)

SO...
I'm setting a goal... I will paint 'something' today.
What it will be? I don't know...
But I shall paint.