The Final Countdown

So it's Saturday morning... 7:25am... I'm awake, had a bowl of chili for breakfast, thinking about taking my vitamins, and generally feeling good. Just did some twittering, read some of my book, and... well, shit? I feel good!

I don't have anyone in my life, I don't believe in a deity, my family thinks I'm crazy (or at least unhinged), I'm living with family (prolly the same ones who think I'm unhinged, lol) and I don't move into my new apartment for 6 more days... 6 looooooooon days...

I feel good... I had some 'loneliness' sensations yesterday, which is kinda weird. I get this urge to grab onto my ex-wife and do WHATEVER I HAVE TO to get her back. But I remember being married to her and wanting nothing more than to be away from her?!

Sure, part of it is cause I loved her... HER... but her disease was life-stripping. I spent all of my energy being there for her, on top of that, I never allowed myself any energy to do things that I enjoyed. In fact, I just made a decision. Today I am going to go get a trackball (cause I'm using a mouse and I HATE MICE!) and download my copy of Warcraft III and play for fun. For those of you that are unfamiliar with the various life-sucking games on the market right now, Warcraft III is NOT World of Warcraft. World of Warcraft is that game that people lose their life in.

Warcraft III is like an advanced game of chess.
I have MUCH better things to do than lose my life in some virtual world... ugh!

But until I get moved into my own place, I am still feeling like my life is on hold. I have like 100+ projects I will be starting soon. Crafting, Painting, Silversmithing, Fire Spinning, Gear Making, Web Site Developing, Programming, Drawing, Writing, etc... I have WAY too many things I want to experience to throw away my hours.

#1) Reason that I will not own a Television for awhile.
#2) Being that I have a shitload of bills... lol.

I am happy tho...
Life is NOT insurmountable.
It's not even unbearable.
It's just uncomfortable... for now.

So far I have possession of almost all the pieces of my new bed!!!!
Comforter - check
Sheets - check
Mattress - bought, and stored at store
Platform Bed Frame - bought, and shipped via Fed Ex
Pillows - Need. Maybe I'll go get them today? Maybe not.

Now I have to start planning on a table for my computer and a couch / sofa.
I'm watching Craigslist and Sams for both.

sigh.

Time doesn't move fast enough... and it moves WAAAAYYYYYY too fast.
Well, it's 7:34 in the morning now.
I'm gonna be going to the YWCA to get a free health test they do for Diabetes and Cholesterol. Then it's off to the Gym, then the day is WIIIIIDE open. Maybe some squirrel fishing... who knows?